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Off late I have been thinking just too much about job satisfaction and it has got nothing to do appraisal and bonus or the raise that one gets at this time of the year. It has more to do with what value-add am I doing to the society, my immediate surroundings at workplace and yes definitely to my self. Why am I starving my mind and heart by doing what I am doing? Does this organisation need me? What if I no longer lived would this place remember me to be a person who did make a difference to the workplace with her capabilities or would only my close friends remember me and cry for me for they know me very personally also.

I am going through another major change in life. I am moving towards motherhood. Yes dealing with morning sickness has been a pain. This change has also made me think what am I doing with life currently. The answer is difficult to get or probably I do not wish to accept the hard reality that I will have to stop thinking logically at work and just like another zombie … come… login…read mails….write mails…uploads…late nights…morning sickness… and some day maternity leave and then pack –off.

This is not what I want …… I want to be happy doing what I am doing……. I want to follow my dreams……
What are my dreams? Have a place of my own…… be independent and work only for myself not for any person who is just a designation and not worth it also. I want to make a mark of myself in this world…… I want to be remembered for my capabilities…. I want to make a difference in some one else’s life other than mine alone.

I am still trying to figure out a way where I can experience job satisfaction and not just the salary part …….
Wish me luck and if any of you have found answers to these questions in your life …….. Please share it with me.